Karma Chameleon?

The Colorado Belle (4-24-2022) Lately I've been accused of being a cheater. And the thing that really hurts - is that after Mary died, I've been nothing but loyal in all of my relationships. So now I see this as a test of karma or chameleon. What do I mean by this? My current situation leads me to believe that it may be consequence that I'd be punished for what I had caused to Mary and others in the past. Or it could be just shifts in shades and patterns to learn from - by blending in with my current environment. Third it could be both, in which I'll take my bad medicine and go with the flow. Because I truly want this relationship to work, even though it's taking a lot of work to succeed at it. So if I have to suffer the consequences of my past and endure the hardships of my new environment - so be it. Usually I'd have called it quits by now, but there's this connection that I have with her that goes beyond my current understanding. (Warning: The followin